Learning to Set Limits
Back in the DOT.COM era when millions and millions of dollars were made from start-up tech businesses no one could've conceived that the Internet would soon be a portal to a vast array of 'money making' schemes and dreams where you did not need a physical office or a handful of employees. You could make your millions just by sitting in bed, nude if you wanted to and with a few clicks of the mouse, (and of course some time invested being online) you could reap what you 'virtually' have sown.
Freedom is an empowering feeling. Especially if it's financial freedom that you have attained. But really, are wealthy people truly empowered but their millions? And does being financially empowered also include the ability to attain Peace of Mind? Can you even purchase 'Peace of Mind'? Of course not, though some may beg to differ.
You see, I am an 'all or nothing person'. It has always been my greatest challenge to find moderation in what I do. When I am off, I can easily be on the computer for days on end with little or no sleep, much less forgetting to eat. I do not surf porn, nor do I have an online business. I have several blogs of which I have let lagged and I do not shop online per se, unless it is to browse thru endless sims of malls in SL. Why don't you read a book, people have asked. Hmmm, well, I do, did, can, could, except I already have an account with Audio Books and all I have to do is download the ebook into my iPod and instead of reading, I can listen. Read the newspaper? Well almost all the major newspapers from all over the world are online too. Go out with friends? Mmm okay, but most of my good friends are in other parts of the world so email, and chat usually is the way to go. Pathetic, I know .. but hey, this is the tech revolution.
So, I spend most of my free time in SL. Why? Because SL has truly become my Second Life. No where can I spend L$5,000 on clothes, new fabulous furniture, a new home or two or three, and all the gadgets a GEEK person like me could ever want. My lastest hobby in SL is to browse thru the Land Sales Listing and visit the different Sims offering island parcels of 4096 sq m2 or more. And if a great find just so happens to coincide with PayDay then I usually end up buying an Island and immersing myself with creating on it, a very comfortable living space for myself.
It's like moving to a plot of land and picking out a new home and shopping for all the right furniture pieces and then landscaping the surrounding area. (So very therapeutic for my creative side that never fruitioned into a career and also my undiagnosed A.D.D.).
But when is it enough? When will I realize that having one island with one beautiful home, furnished with fabulous furniture be enough for just Maxine Montale to live in all by her little self. Afterall, how many single women in RL own their own secluded Island with a three-storey glass and concrete home? Some but not many. And certainly not alone.
Perhaps, after acquiring my tenth Island, I should be ready to stop. After allowing my ego to run amuck in SL (with the hopes of distinguishing it from my RL self) I should still be able to find my 'centre' and just be. That would be nice.
Or, after my tenth island, I could just upgrade to owning my own SIM and having a region named after me! Montale Isles! Talk about ultimate Ego tripping! Only in SL, only in SL.
Sigh ....